I should be happy.  Yesterday I took my last shelf exam ever.  I never have to go to the OR again.  I have five days off before starting my sub-internship.  By all accounts, I should be thrilled and enjoying this sudden free time.

Yesterday was fine — end-of-the-year class party (on a boat!), birthday dinner and drinks for a good friend.  I got a good night’s sleep for the first time in weeks.  My apartment is (reasonably) clean in preparation for my mother’s visit.  So why do I feel so … blank?

I felt this way before: after taking the MCAT, after turning in my undergrad thesis, after hitting “submit” on Step 1.  The sense that this major part of my life — Third Year — is suddenly and anticlimactically over, and I don’t know what to do with myself.


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